Loneliness – being alone – being all-one
An important aspect in my art work is loneliness. For me, the more coherent spelling “being all-one” is more urgent in its composition and points more clearly to the core of the statement. The german word “all” (you could translate it with: space) implicates a larger, all-encompassing, the infinite – actually not really comprehensible, because its dimension is too large. “Being one” points to the unity in being, whatever is present and wants to be understood. All-being is successful in the awake present, which in turn is the basis of design, creation, art. It should therefore come as no surprise that Solitaire outgrows the studio.
Even if many color awareness paintings are created in series that relate to each other, they are characterized by similarity rather than by the narrative, which does not play a role in my art. By concentrating on the NOW, or better: by being all-one in the creative process, the soul power can flow into the work and curdle into snapshots, which then get their way into freedom as witnesses of this creative work.
Game & creativity
As a child, still fully involved in the beauty of simple life on a Slovenian farm, without electric light, but candlelight, no running water, but clear, fresh water from the well and no central heating, but the cozy warmth of a tiled stove (at least in winter) – so under simple living conditions, but in the game, in nature there were breaks with the family when the time came and I was just 6 years old. The desire for some relief, for a little luxury in being there, prompted my mother to go to Germany. The call of the later stepfather, who had 5 children in Germany alone, was too tempting. I lost sight of the two bigger siblings there, my brother came to relatives like me. The little sister was allowed to go on the trip with her while I was housed at the age of 6 with my aunt and uncle in the neighboring town. After a year I was allowed to follow in Southern Germany, but the social apartment hardly offered any space for the existing family of eight, so the decision to move me to the Catholic children’s home made sense from this perspective.